epiphanies while sitting on my bed, playing my guitar…
For the past few weeks (read:months (read:year or so)) I’ve been watching girls I went to high school with get married, have kids, build houses, and I’ve looked at that and gone, wow, I feel like I’ve done nothing with my life. About ten minutes ago, I was sitting on my bed playing my guitar and I looked at the collage on my wall. It has a massive collection of tickets/postcards/etc from different places I’ve been and things that I’ve done. That’s when I realised that that’s what they want with their lives. They want to live in the same place they grew up, have lots of kids and play house. I want to travel the world, see places that I’ve never been, have a career and learn more about the person that I have been made to be. That’s not to say that I look down on them for being that way, or that one day I don’t want to have a family of my own, but for right now, I’m quite happy where I am. I have lived in another country and worked on a ski hill for 7 months; I have been to England to see a band play; I have been to Wembley Stadium to watch the football team I’ve supported since I’ve followed football lose a promotion final; I have spent a long weekend exploring Dublin by myself; and I have been up the Eiffel Tower and managed to remember enough French to at least read signs as we made our way around Paris. I would not change what I have done with my life for the world, and I wouldn’t have my life in any way different to what it has been. (even if I currently spend my days feeling like I’m wasting eight hours doing nothing…)
